Façade

A break in the façade,
I fall apart inside.
The outward shell to be one
Gives way to another.

Picture the world with
My current state of being...
Let down to discover the
Apparent lack of perfection.

Difficult, being something
Strong on the surface
When your insides
Are screaming for help.

Something needs to happen-
This damn feeling of wanting to adjust
The doomed existence of a
Two-faced life.

I’ll become that…
My desired change.
I’ll make it fade, this damn feeling… and
Construct another façade to hide behind.

Something New, Again

I started writing in this blog many, many years ago. I wrote in it nearly everyday, about things that were going on in my life, things I either understood or tried to explain. I had a few people that read it, but overall I felt like it was just my little ignored corner of the internet, lost among the millions of others trying to find their voice. I posted less and less, and eventually stopped using it altogether.

I've deleted all my old entries, twice now, because I've started this blog over again in an attempt to get some of my unspoken thoughts verbalized. And much like it says over on the right side of this screen, don't ever expect anything written here to make sense. Odds are, it never will.